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- brain: ruin it
- me: why
- brain: you gotta
Almost every night I lay awake tossing and turning because my mind likes to replay every instance in my life where I’ve been hurt by analyzing scenarios from years ago. My mind likes to retrace the scars of my heart and look inside the depths of them just to remember how deep those wounds went. Why do I do this? Why do I ruminate on the past when I’m not that broken, needy, girl anymore? But when I think about all the times I’ve let my guard down and opened my heart, just to have it mangled and forgotten, I don’t know how I’ll ever trust a man with my heart ever again.
I feel and hurt too deeply to risk putting it on the line. But I know that when I do meet someone..that ill just know, and the lord will nudge me forward and say “it’s okay, go ahead”
I pray one day, when I met a man worthy of it, that my heart will open up again and I will remember how to love fully and deeply.
I was dying to
hear
someone say
That I didn’t need
to try so hard to be perfect,
That i was enough
and
it was okay.
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why does cooking takes like six hours and eating like three seconds and washing dishes like seven days and seven nights
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